you are the big rocket launcher

I have a permanent account, so I'll be here until LJ shuts its doors; I don't update, but DW doesn't have 'a day in my life' style communities yet or the 101 in 1001 community. Anyway, if you're leaving, here's where you can find me, and please do add me!

At dreamwidth I'm sobota as well. sobota

I've transferred my livejournal over there too. I'm just about as active over there as over here (read: not really at all) but it's a good a place as any to store my 16 years worth of drivel.

At Twitter, I'm at two places: @snuggledeath and @sdmwrites.

I am super active on both of these; @snuggledeath is private and @sdmwrites is public and super political.

At Tumblr, I'm mazeballet. I post a lot of weird stuff. I'm trying to become a studyblr because I got accepted into my Master's programme. [#humblebrag]

At Instagram, I'm themazeballet. I haven't posted since my birthday, but I'm not a very exciting person. There's a link to my blog there, but there's not much there at the mo'.

So there you have it; if you want more private things like Snapchat and my Facebook, I'm willing to send you those on an ask basis--just ask and I'll give them to you.

BASICS

THE BIG STUFF
Dezi
30 Dec 1985
USA
French teacher
German-American

INTERESTS
Feminism
Foreign Languages
Queer/LGBT Issues
Sports
Politics

HOBBIES
Movies
Travelling
Tennis
Football/Soccer

SORTING/TESTS/IDENTIFIERS
Slytherin/Ravenclaw (Slytherclaw ftw)
Capricorn
INFP
Enneagram type 7: the enthusiast
Gender= Femme-ish.
Sexuality= Pansexual...celibate? It's complicated.

FAVORITES

FANDOMS
Harry Potter
The Lord of the Rings
Supernatural-ish (stopped watching after season 8, RPF)
Vikings (RPF)

SHIPS
Harry/Ron/Hermione (threesomes ftw, HP)
Jensen Ackles/Misha Collins (SPN RPF)
Athelstan/Ragnar (Vikings)
Athlestan/Floki/Helga (pre season 3)
George Blagden/Travis Fimmel (Vikings RPF)
George Blagden/Gustaf Skarsgard (Vikings RPF)

BOOKS/AUTHORS
The Great Gatsby by F Scott Fitzgerald
The Hobbit and The Lord of the Rings trilogy by JRR Tolkien
the Harry Potter books by JK Rowling
I Capture the Castle by Dodie Smith
John Le Carre
Agatha Christie
Ngaio Marsh

MOVIES
The Lord of the Rings trilogy
Dogma
Snatch
The Losers
GoldenEye
all Daniel Craig James Bond films
The Brothers Bloom
Argo

TELEVISION SERIES
Vikings
Game of Thrones
Breaking Bad
Wallander
Come Dine with Me

ARTISTS/BANDS
Fall Out Boy
Arctic Monkeys
The Doors
Mumford & Sons
Adele
Hozier
Shakira

MUSIC GENRES
Alternative Rock & Rock
Indie
Post-Rock
Pop

SPORTS
Tennis
Football (soccer)

SPORTS TEAMS
Bayern-München(football)
Sheffield United (football)
Olympique Lyonnais (football)
Die Deutsche Fußballnationalmannschaft (The German national football team)
JFA Mens & Women's (Japan Football Association)
Selección de fútbol de Argentina (Argentina's national football team)

ATHLETES
literally anyone who has played in the fussball-bund for Germany
Roger Federer

FOODS
Asian cuisines, especially Japanese and Chinese
breakfast foods
berries

DRINKS
Hot tea
White wine
Sparkling/mineral waters

MISC
Twitter: @snuggledeath
Tumblr: mazeballet
Instagram: themazeballet

a series of haikus

i want to say yes
to so many diff'rent things
but can only wait

yes is a word i
very rarely get to say:
dare i dream today?

this month has been hard
so many dreams deferred and
so many tears shed

Tomorrow is another job interview. It's not the job I want but I do need work. I wish the other job would call me. I want it so badly. I've called them a few times but I don't need to bother them.

I've taken a sick day on Wednesday. I'm getting so tired and my students are so awful. I miss my students last year. Oh well. Nostalgia, really.

As an only child, I am the only combination of my parents that there will ever be. My parents are also divorced so there is definitely nobody that will ever be like me. I feel like somehow this is important, but there are so many other only children in this world that I'm unsure why I should feel special.

I don't understand siblings. They've always mystified me. Their relationships are forced by the mere fact of being related to one another and nothing else. But it must be very nice to have someone to contact other than your parents when something has gone wrong...but only if your relationship has survived the travails of life.

There are two superpowers that I wish I had: invisibility and time travel. Sometimes I wish I were magical like in Harry Potter as well, but I've always wanted to be invisible or travel through time. Mostly I want to travel forward to a point in time of my choosing. Mostly because I am very rarely happen in the when and where I am now. Invisibility because I want to go places where women are either not allowed or unwelcome and just see what it's not like not to be noticed for my perceived sex.

Here are the top five questions I am constantly asked by students or new people or just, in general.

Where are you from?
- I was born in Texas. I've lived all over the world.

What ARE you?
- My mum is German and my father is Black American. Hence me.

How many tattoos do you have?
- I've got nine. I want more.

How many languages do you speak?
- Seven, four fluently. I want to speak 12 fluently.

Are you married/do you have kids?
These come back to back, so I'm counting them as one. No and no.

There are plenty more, but those are the ones that I get the most.

I'm very overwhelmed by work, and what happens after (when I lose my contract) and then again...I have an interview coming up. I keep breathing, but I'm just not sure. I just am so lost.

I hate listening to music out of its place. I can only listen to certain bands in certain countries or I get terrible depressed and fall into a terrible state. Some music can only be listened to whilst walking along streets in a thousand year old city and some can only be listened to on planes or trains. I only listen to NPR in the car in the USA; in England it's Radio 4 in the car (although I've gotten used to listening to Radio 4 at home, but only through podcasts, sometimes live).

Every song puts me straight back to where I heard it last, and sometimes that can cause me to burst into tears. I haven't done that in a while, but you know, things change.

I listen to all sorts of music. If I do have music on, it's usually thematic. I love the Songza playlists for certain times of the day, but I don't listen to it very often. During dinner or in the mornings getting ready at the weekends (if I don't have a podcast to listen to).

I realise I am a strange, strange soul.